Big Men Fashion 🙄

Oh My Momma (Momma)

On My Hood (Hood)

I Look Fly (Yeah)

I Look Good (Good)

Touch My Swag (Swag)

Wish You Could (Could)

I Look Fly (Yeah)

I Look Good (Good)

I Look Good (Good!)

Charlie Boy - I look good 

This is easier said then done when you are big guy. The fashion scene for big men is terrible at best. This entry will be fun but very truthful about big men fashion. 

Finding clothes for big men that actually looks good can be like finding that needle in a hay stack. I was so tired of seeing those shirts that professional bowlers would wear being advertise to big men. First let me give you my definition of a big man.  Any man who wears 5xl or larger is a big man. Anything past 4xl is entering the bowler shirt territory.  🎳  So finding a good "fit" for a big man can be difficult. 

This difficulty of finding clothes that stylish for me has deceased since the weight loss. The prices of clothes has deceased as well which means more money for cologne. (Which is another topic 😂😂😂). Plethora of colors I can choose from now. Because prior to the weight loss the only colors available were blues, grays and reds....😱😱😱. Terrible just terrible....😂😂😂 

 So now I am getting my Big Pretty Boy swag on. This actually caused me to get more motivated. I want to buy more clothes. It makes want to lose more and keep the weight down. I feel more confident in my clothes now. Confidence in knowing I'm looking good. 

#FoodForThought

Your mind is a powerful tool. Start thinking positive thoughts about yourself. Manifest your winning season. Take everyday one day at a time. Be a better person than you were yesterday. 

Thank you for tuning in.... #MyLastFatHomecoming

What's nor·mal...

nor·mal

/ˈnôrməl/

adjective

1.

conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected.

noun

1.

the usual, average, or typical state or condition.

After years of feeling trapped inside of myself...I am finally feeling NORMAL. But what is normal for me? Being able to walk long distances. This is something that many take for granted but for me it is a new way of life. I enjoy just walking around without having to worry if my back and legs hurting. In addition low stamina. Just being able to walk around as a NORMAL person is something I thought I could never do again. (Now if I can was down the street being Black man not being harassed due to my skin color is another story.)  Wearing clothes off the rack, sitting in booths in restaurants,  having sex while performing different positions, and etc are all things gained back to make me feel normal.  But......why do I see myself as Abnormal. Why the reflection in the mirror is not the same image I see in my mind? 🤔

Could this be body dysmorphia? I think so. This is normal for those who lose alot of weight  since our minds revert back to when we were a larger size. So in a sense, we can't view ourselves as NORMAL. 

Weight loss isn't just physical lost of fat but also mental. We got to lose the mental weight we have build up over time. For me, the feeling of not being normal nor good enough are the mental pounds I'm still working on. This feeling was started as a child. Due to my size and also a strict upbringing when it came to education. If a made an B on a test my mother would tell me Son that is good but we both know you could have made an A. Which she was correct however I was young and instead of talking her about it I allowed those feelings to turn into thoughts that I wasn't good enough. This good enough  is a fight I am still battling today. This is not a sap story about my childhood because I had a great one. My parents just pushed because they knew I was not applying myself like I should have. This will be explain more in an another entry working on. S not matter how  cutting back on carbs, fats, sugars, and etc will not make these mental pounds shrink. It's take self reflection. Being totally honest with yourself and embrace your faults. Everyday I try to learn something new about me and reinsure myself that I am good enough.

Just remember being NORMAL is a state of mind. Yes you are going have days when don't feel NORMAL. However don't allow those mental pounds weigh you down. Don't allow anyone or anything make you feel that you are not good enough.  Take it from me, this is very hurtful to one's self-esteem to allow something or someone make you feel that aren't good enough. Because at the end of the day, their opinion doesn't matter. Don't let it destroy you. Learn to be abnormally normal. I'm focusing on being the best Tristan that I can be. If a person doesn't like me the abnormally normal me they can kick rocks.

Remember to protect your peace. Take it one day at a time.  And most important if all YOU CAN DO IT.

Until next time.... #MyLastFatHomecoming

Brent Faiyaz - Clouded

I gave it all for a fantasy

Is anybody gon' remember me?

If I go tonight, I doubt the world would change

I just pray they don't forget my name

Is it game rules? I can't lose

When it's all said and done, will I still be cool?