Turn your nightmares into Dreams... 4/16/2020

Ain't this what they've been waiting for?

You ready?

I used to pray for times like this, to rhyme like this

So I had to grind like that to shine like this

In a matter of time I spent on some locked up shit

In the back of the paddy wagon, cuffs locked on wrists

See my dreams unfold, nightmares come true

It was time to marry the game and I said, "Yeah, I do"

If you want it you gotta see it with a clear-eyed view

Got a shorty, she tryna bless me like I said, "Achoo"

Meek Mill - Dreams and Nightmares 

Stress effects weight loss echoed in my mind. My weight loss coach, Robin, told me this during a weigh in after a break up. I had gained four pounds. I was devastated. All this hard work and I gained weight. How Sway? I told Robin I was going through a break up and she said she understood because she was currently going through one as well. Robin told me that stress effects weight loss. "Tristan your body is retaining liquid since you are stressed." Robin stated. She told me to work on processing this break up to relieve the stress. I paid for my shakes and walked out the center a broken man mentally, emotionally and physically. I got in my car feeling terrible. A failed relationship and now weight gain...all bad. The drive from St. Vincent to my apartment is about 30 minutes with my driving (I'm a slow driver) but that day it seemed like it took forever. Now, looking back I needed that time. I needed to start processing this breakup. So, on my drive back to Conway I had Partynextdoor - "News" on repeat. I felt that this song was about me and my failed relationship. Then I made the dumbest decision ever when it comes to breakups; I convinced myself that I wasn't going to allow her to make me feel sad. I was going to be numb about this situation. 🙄 I know I know...stupid...🙄 Because the weigh in for the next week, my body plateaued... No weight gain or loss. Robin asked if I was still stressed because my food journal was great and I should have lost some weight. I reluctantly told her yes. Robin stated again the stress effects weight loss. Same cycle as the week before a long drive while having the same song on repeat. When I got home I put on my Black Emo music playlist and the song "Honesty" by Pink Sweat$ started to play. Ironic as it was, I finally began to be honest with my self and let the process start. So, after a few tears 😭 I felt better. I felt my motivation come back. That moment of honesty with myself broke down the wall I built up for my emotions. I got up and made my keto cabbage soup and stated to myself I will not let this mess up my progress I made so far. (I had lost 60lbs at that time) I used my friend's advice (Dr.Terri) and stopped listening to my Black Emo music and started back my journaling. I began to feel better in time and my next weigh in was a success. I lost 16lbs. After two weeks of failing (Nightmares) I finally had success. I was so happy 76lbs down. I sent my family and close friends my result of the weigh in and they were so happy.

I learned a valuable lesson. Turn your nightmares into Dreams. Life might not always go the way that you expect. This also goes for your weight loss journey or any journey you are taking. There are going to be ups and downs but it all depends on how you handle them.

Some tips to use with your journey...

1. Set small goals that would lead to your overall goal.
2. Use this motto: Take one day at a time and one week at a time... Don't rush the process!!!
3. Make sure your support system actually supports you.
4. Every breathe you take is another chance to better yourself. (Don't be too hard on yourself. This is a step I am still working on.)
5. Block out negativity. (Yes, I am working on this step as well.)
6. Most importantly, Love you...(This step is my biggest hurdle that I will get across.)

#MyLastFatHomeComing